COMMENTARY | I just voted.
It was grueling.
It wasn't because the lines were long. I only waited ten minutes to get my ballot. That's typical for any Bellevue, Ohio, polling center.
What made it grueling was the battle between my head and my heart.
I'm pro-life in every aspect of the term. I have been my entire life. Romney was appealing to me in that way. He wants to see Roe v Wade overturned, and get rid of Planned Parenthood, both very good things.
On the flip side, Romney doesn't support financial aid for college students, and, as an adjunct professor, that concerns me.
Adjuncts are disposable. We don't have tenure and we don't have benefits of any sort, so, when Romney said that our youth should borrow money from their parents to go to college, I cringed. My parents could have never paid for my college education. Where I teach, a small percentage of students would be there if it weren't for financial aid. That line of thinking would also destroy community colleges nationwide.
So, I studied Obama. Under his Affordable Healthcare Act, I can get medical insurance. It also has a clause that disables insurance companies for rejecting me because I'm a cancer survivor. And… Obama supports financial aid for college students.
All of these things raced through my head as I stared at the paper ballot and fumbled with the black pen I used to bubble in my vote.
The lady next to me, who was voting when I sat down, was still there. Her loud sighs of frustration made it apparent that she was struggling, too.
Why does this have to be so difficult? It took me over a half of an hour to vote, because I just couldn't make up my mind.
Do I go with my heart (and core values), and vote Romney?
Do I go with my head (and job security) and vote Obama?
I filled in Obama's oval and made my way to the computer. As soon as the computer started to take it, I began to feel regret.
Whether I voted for Romney or Obama, I would have had this feeling. Plus, as the polling employee told me, "It's too late to change it now."
- Politics & Government