- Jessica Simpson is opening up about her life in a new memoir titled Open Book.
- In the first excerpt, she reveals she was sexually abused as a child.
- She also says she self-medicated with alcohol and pills.
Jessica Simpson's memoir is coming out on February 4th, and the singer is opening up about the sexual abuse she suffered as a child and how she self-medicated over the years.
In Open Book, which was just excerpted in People, the mom of three revealed that she was sexually abused as a little girl. As a result of that, and dealing with the pressures of her career, she started self-medicating with alcohol and stimulants. “I was killing myself with all the drinking and pills,” she wrote in her book.
Jessica said the abuse began when she was just six “when I shared a bed with the daughter of a family friend,” she said. “It would start with tickling my back and then go into things that were extremely uncomfortable.”
Jessica said she worried that it was her fault. “I wanted to tell my parents,” she wrote. “I was the victim but somehow I felt in the wrong.” It wasn’t until she was 12 that she finally spoke up. Jessica said her mother slapped her father’s arm and yelled at him, “I told you something was happening.”
“Dad kept his eye on the road and said nothing,” Jessica said. “We never stayed at my parents’ friends house again but we also didn’t talk about what I had said.”
Jessica said she hit rock bottom after a Halloween party at her house in late 2017. She remembered saying to her friends, “I need to stop. Something’s got to stop. And if it’s the alcohol that’s doing this, and making things worse, then I quit.”
Jessica said she got sober in November 2017.“Giving up the alcohol was easy,” she said. “I was mad at that bottle. At how it allowed me to stay complacent and numb.” She now undergoes twice-weekly therapy, which is tough for her. “With work, I allowed myself to feel the traumas I’d been through,” she said.
Now, Jessica calls sobriety and her clarity on life “a continual gift.” “When I finally said I needed help, it was like I was that little girl that found her calling again in life,” she said. “I found direction and that was to walk straight ahead with no fear.”
Open Book is out on February 4.
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