After miscarriage, Hilaria Baldwin says that lost 'little soul' sparked a big conversation

Amy Haneline
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Baldwin says she is "doing well" after losing her baby and says her "little flicker of life" inspired her to "create a positive from a negative" by starting a conversation about miscarriage.

Hilaria Baldwin is crediting her lost baby for sparking an important conversation about miscarriage – an experience she says too many women are afraid to speak about.

"This is an issue that so many suffer with in silence...because those are the rules we follow," she wrote in an Instagram post published Wednesday, two weeks after her own miscarriage. "As I have said to so many: this experience wasn’t just about me and my journey, it is about anyone, perhaps you, or someone you know, who has suffered a loss. It is about continuing a conversation, knowing we need not have shame or fear...so that we can heal...and those who will unfortunately follow will have a community to turn to."

Baldwin said that she is "doing well" two weeks after she had a dilation and curettage (D&C) a surgical procedure to clear tissue from the uterus that is usually done after a first-trimester miscarriage.

She talked openly about the miscarriage from the moment she suspected she was experiencing one.

"When we choose to become parents, we take a big risk with our hearts," Baldwin wrote. "Never do we love so intensely — and this is scary, but so worth it. This time, when I opened my heart up to another baby, he or she didn’t stay very long. But I love this little soul deeply and wholly."

She added that she believes everyone has a purpose in life, and her little one did too in its short life.

"Creating a positive from a negative, this little flicker of life left it’s (sic) mark," she wrote.

Her post accompanied a sonogram video from the pregnancy.

Since so many of you have been asking, I want to tell you that I am doing well. It has been 2 weeks since the d&c and I am physically starting to feel like myself again. Emotionally I am ok too...when we choose to become parents, we take a big risk with our hearts. Never do we love so intensely—and this is scary, but so worth it. This time, when I opened my heart up to another baby, he or she didn’t stay very long. But I love this little soul deeply and wholly. We all have a purpose in life, and I believe my little one left positivity in it’s short life. I felt a deep provocation to share what was going on and, in being so open, some great conversations emerged. Creating a positive from a negative, this little flicker of life left it’s mark. This is an issue that so many suffer with in silence...because those are the rules we follow. As I have said to so many: this experience wasn’t just about me and my journey, it is about anyone, perhaps you, or someone you know, who has suffered a loss. It is about continuing a conversation, knowing we need not have shame or fear...so that we can heal...and those who will unfortunately follow will have a community to turn to. I came forward to share and create a spark...please help me turn this spark into a lasting flame 🔥. (What you are seeing in the video is the first sonogram of the baby I lost...before we could see and hear the heart. In the lower left corner you can see the flicker. I don’t have a video of the heartbeat we witnessed a few times before it stopped...I want to share this because I feel like this little soul was mighty in the wave it provoked 💛)

A post shared by Hilaria Thomas Baldwin (@hilariabaldwin) on Apr 24, 2019 at 8:01am PDT

Baldwin urged other women to continue the conversation.

"I came forward to share and create a spark," she wrote. "please help me turn this spark into a lasting flame."

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This article originally appeared on USA TODAY: After miscarriage, Hilaria Baldwin says that lost 'little soul' sparked a big conversation