Myleene Klass has publicly shared that she secretly suffered four miscarriages before welcoming her youngest child last year.
In a post to Instagram, the singer revealed she had been encouraged to share her experiences after Chrissy Teigen spoke on the "deep pain" she and husband John Legend felt after losing their child earlier this month. Klass said she was doing so in the hopes of helping "even one lost soul".
The 42-year-old, who has two daughters with ex-husband Graham Quinn, Ava, 13, and Hero, 9, and son Apollo, one, with partner Simon Motson, shared the post on Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day on 15 October.
"I am Mama to 7 babies, Ava, Hero, Apollo my rainbow baby and 4 little stars in the sky. I know after my own MC’s [miscarriages] how I scoured the internet for stories similar to mine for peace, reassurance. I hope this helps even one lost soul," she wrote.
On national babyloss-miscarriage day, @chrissyteigen gave me the courage to write.I am Mama to 7 babies, Ava, Hero, Apollo my rainbow baby and 4 little stars in the sky.I know after my own MC’s how I scoured the internet for stories similar to mine for peace, reassurance.I hope this helps even one lost soul. #1.At the airport, flying home for a D&C.I’d started bleeding heavily at 10wks on holiday.The scan was the saddest sight I’ve ever seen in my life.The first and last time I saw my baby.As the doctor pushed the camera on my belly, the familiar black and blue image of my baby sprung onto the screen, then started to sink and slowly floated down, til it just hunched over. I knew. ‘I’m sorry there’s no heartbeat’.The feeling is nothing short of traumatic, shock.At my D&C I was asked to confirm the procedure.I cried so hard the nurse held my hand and answered for me.They taped my bracelet to my wrist, two gold swallows.It made me sob. Swallows love for life and always come home.I told the anaesthetist to please make sure I wake up as I’m a mum then I cried again at what they were going to take out.I woke to emptiness and the horror of what had happened.I felt I’d failed my baby and my partner. #2.The second time was worse if that’s possible, I thought I’d had my ‘1 in 4’ experience.This time,the baby had stopped growing at 10wks,completely unrelated to the first MC ‘so it’s just bad luck’. I didn’t take my eyes off the fire alarm on the ceiling, lest I break completely. Walking past the pregnant women in reception was torture. This D&C was no less traumatic. Infact,the familiarity of it cut deeper.The ‘wishes to dispose of the products of pregnancy’ form, the walking to theatre,the ugly socks.Having everything one minute, a name, a school, then nothing.The third,I miscarried at work.The fourth,the loo.Whilst I could get pregnant, there was no explanation for why I couldn’t keep them.The Dr’s took no chances with Apollo.I injected countless,endless hormones into my belly to keep my placenta working.He signifies everything good in the world to me,my miracle.To my friends and Mamas who have experienced this, you are the strongest women I know. Thinking of you today❤
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The presenter went on to describe the experiences of losing the four pregnancies, explaining the signs for the first one came when she was "bleeding heavily" on holiday while 10 weeks pregnant, before heading home and having the doctor confirm there was no heartbeat.
"The feeling is nothing short of traumatic, shock. At my D&C [dilation and curettage] I was asked to confirm the procedure. I cried so hard the nurse held my hand and answered for me. They taped my bracelet to my wrist, two gold swallows.It made me sob. Swallows love for life and always come home.
"I told the anaesthetist to please make sure I wake up as I’m a mum then I cried again at what they were going to take out," she said.
Klass said she felt as though she had failed her baby and partner at the time. She went on to describe her second miscarriage as "worse" after the baby had stopped growing at 10 weeks in circumstances "completely unrelated" to the first pregnancy loss.
Describing the second dilation and curettage, Klass remarked "the familiarity of it cut deeper".
She added the third miscarriage had taken place while she was at work, and the fourth occurred in a bathroom.
"Whilst I could get pregnant, there was no explanation for why I couldn’t keep them," Klass noted.
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She noted that doctors took "no chances" when it came to Apollo, who was born August 2019, as she was injected with "countless, endless" hormones to "keep [her] placenta working".
Of her youngest child she commented: "He signifies everything good in the world to me, my miracle. To my friends and Mamas who have experienced this, you are the strongest women I know. Thinking of you today❤."
She accompanied the post with two pictures of her taking a selfie in a mirror, side on with a baby bump in view.
When Teigen announced her and Legend's sad loss to the world she received an abundance of support online for speaking openly about the family's sorrow in losing the son they had named Jack.
The couple were thanked by many for breaking the silence surrounding baby loss.
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