It's Okay To Prioritize Your Mental Health While Fighting Racism
As a black woman in America, I've never felt more uneasy than I do right now. Within months of each other, three black people were killed by either police officers or everyday citizens during racially motivated encounters. Breonna Taylor, Ahmaud Arbery, and George Floyd are their names—which I'll continue to say and advocate for until justice is served. But my mental health has definitely taken a hit.
I spend my nights restless—tossing and turning, barely able to sleep. And I spend my mornings anxious, tense, and constantly checking my phone, with an ear tuned into the television because I'm worried another black person will be killed. I know these feelings are unhealthy—and I know I'm not the only one feeling this way (s/o to my other POCs and allies).
It's not exactly surprising that watching countless race-fueled, unjust murders is bad for your mental health. "The murders of black people at the hands of police—and the constant cycling of imagery that shows these deaths—amplifies our anxiety and distress," says Yolo Akili Robinson, executive director of BEAM (Black Emotional and Mental Health Collective).
It affects us psychologically and physically by increasing stress, raising our heart rates and blood pressure, cause muscle tension, migraines, sleeplessness, and induce feelings of sadness, anger, fear, numbness, fatigue, and hopelessness, says Candice Hargons, PhD, director of the Center for Healing Racial Trauma.
Research on 40,000 black Americans found that police killings of black people were associated with worse mental-health issues (stress, depression, and difficulty dealing with emotions) in the montths following police brutality among those surveyed. The study also suggests that police killings could add 55 million more poor mental health days every year among black Americans.
SOURCE: University of Pennsylvania and Boston University study
And let's be honest: It's not just witnessing atrocious acts of racism or systemic racism that's stressful. Being anti-racist is also work—and that can be anxiety-provoking in and of itself, especially considering that not doing it, at least for the majority of black Americans, is not an option.
I have felt so drained the past couple of weeks not only advocating amongst my friends and encouraging them to do better, but just in reading and listening to the news. I've had to remind myself (with a little help from my friends—thanks, Jenna!) that joy is also a form of resistance in a society that wasn't set up to benefit people like me. Taking time to do something for yourself, other than advocating for your community, is also vital—just as making sure you have the mental capacity to show up is just as important as the work itself.
“Incorporating daily activities and practices that help us create a little bit of peace, rootedness, and centeredness are critical,” Robinson says. Otherwise, you can find yourself burned out and unable to be helpful to the causes you truly care about. It's important when we talk about our mental health right now that we find ways to manage and ease our distress, because for the vast majority of us, we can not escape the circumstances, Robinson says.
Hargons and Robinson have a few recommendations on how to maintain and preserve your mental health while combating systemic racism and social injustice, especially for black Americans:
Connect with a mental health professional who has been trained in racial trauma. Therapy For Black Girls is a great place to start. You can use their online database and filter it down to the therapists in your area who not only fit your mental health needs, but are also covered by your insurance. I've also found it helpful to refresh my Instagram feed with a little TLC by following some great black female therapists, including Dr. Hargons. Here are a few others that I've found to be great resources:
Practice meditation and other mind/body interventions to prevent your nervous system from being on high-alert all the time. Research has shown that meditation can show improvements in anxiety, depression, and pain. Hargons recommends the GirlTrek Black History Bootcamp going on this month, which encourages black women to walk and meditate on powerful female ancestors in history.
Engage in joy-based practices, like family Zoom meetings and virtual dance parties, recommends Hargons. While it may be tough to think about doing something as fun or frivolous as dancing right now, it's important to remember that joy is also a form of resistance.
Hug people more often, because physical touch promotes wellness, Hargons says. Seriously, a hug or friendly touch can increase the release of the oxytocin hormone, which can help reduce our stress response and general anxiety. And for those of you worried about social distancing, just keep the hugging to your household.
Give yourself permission to engage in resistance and activism work at your own capacity. We all may not be on the front lines every day, and that's okay, Hargons says. Do what you can mentally handle. Instead of protesting on Main Street one day, maybe you need to allow yourself a day to journal and sit with your feelings, Robinson recommends. And BEAM has several prompts on their website that can help with this process.
Photo credit: Courtesy of BEAM Make time for exercise. Doing activities that bring us into the present moment, like yoga or tai chi are super important, Robinson says. Plus, exercise releases endorphins, which can reduce stress and improve your ability to sleep if you've been struggling to get in your eight hours like I have.
For me, taking mental health breaks throughout the day has been vital to dealing with the current tragedies and deaths in the black community. I've found joy in cooking (my baked tilapia last night was *chef's kiss*), meditation (10 minutes a day to center my breath), and physical touch (forcing the people in my house to hug is a daily occurrence).
I encourage anyone reading this to do the same. Find what brings you peace so that when it's time to deal with the unrest—when it's time share the resources, donate to the cause, and march in the streets—we are not only willing, but mentally able to do so.
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