Shane Dawson said he almost 'lost my relationship' with his partner over the stress of making the Jeffree Star documentary and makeup palette

• "The Cancelled World of Jeffree Star and Shane Dawson" was released on November 1.

• The first episode delved into Dawson's relationship with Star and their experience working together.

• Dawson said he almost lost his relationship because of his "passion" for the documentary series.

YouTuber Shane Dawson said that the year he spent filming a video series following his journey to creating an eyeshadow palette with the makeup mogul and fellow YouTuber Jeffree Star almost cost him his relationship with long-term partner Ryland Adams.

The revelation came during the first episode of Dawson's new multi-part series titled "The Cancelled World of Jeffree Star and Shane Dawson," which was posted on November 1.

It marks the third major collaboration between the YouTubers, who became friends when Dawson created his first docu-series about Star, which was released in 2018. The pair went on to collaborate on a further series that culminated in the launch their "Conspiracy Collection" makeup line. 

The recent video showed Adams' mother Vicky addressing criticism that the pivot to beauty was a "money grab" from Dawson.

Dawson responded that if he "wanted to do a money grab" there were plenty of "easier ways" he could have done so. "I wouldn't have done a year-long documentary about it. I wouldn't have spent my whole life editing it. I wouldn't have almost lost my relationship," he said.

He added that making his docuseries about the production of the palette was "intense."

Dawson said he put a lot of "passion" into both projects, which put a strain on his relationship with Adams. "I was editing 24 hours a day and not giving him any attention. It was the hardest, most intense year," Dawson said.

He explained that it was "so fun and so creative" to be able to make the Conspiracy collection makeup palette, which sold out on the same day as its release according to a tweet posted by Star, and described the experience as akin to "giving birth to a child."

Dawson denied being focused on money and said that he "overhyped" the financial incentive from the Conspiracy collection. "I did not make anywhere near what people think I made. People thought I made like 10 or 20 million dollars on it — I did not. The first palette did very well but the cost of goods is crazy," he said.

Both Dawson, who has 19.5 million subscribers, and Star, who has 15.9 million, were hugely popular YouTubers, but faced widespread criticism in 2020, leading to the downfall of Dawson after clips featuring racism and inappropriate comments about minors resurfaced.

His high-profile and documented connection to Star, who also had a history of racist comments, was a key part of his demise, which was labeled "Karmageddon," leading to Dawson losing over one million subscribers. Dawson's books and makeup were also removed from Morphe and Target.

Less than a day after its release, Dawson's new series, which heavily references his "cancelation," has received over 900,000 views and is currently the #1 trending video on YouTube.

Dawson and Adams became engaged in March 2019 and currently live in Colorado. They have been documenting their journey to becoming parents via a surrogate on Adams' YouTube channel, which has 3.8 million subscribers.

Star has since moved from Los Angeles to a $1.1 million yak ranch in Wyoming and has been sharing his farming journey on an alternative Instagram account that has nearly 150,000 followers.

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