In a lengthy interview with The Sun, the reality TV personality talked about how she would have "about 10 drinks a day" after winning the show, and was afraid of following in the footsteps of her father, who has had difficulties with drinking over the years.
"I had everything I ever wanted," she admitted. "The public liked us, I'd left behind Geordie Shore and I had this new shiny career. But I was convinced that people would realise I wasn't anything special and it would all be taken away.
"I was turning up late for jobs. I don't think I ever turned up drunk, I always slept, but I was not in a fit state to work. When you're doing talk shows you want to be witty and warm, bright eyed and bushy tailed, not still shaking off the lethargy of five gin and tonics. Once in a while you can put it down to the Geordie charm but, consistently, it's just unprofessional.
"That's what I was becoming. I was jeopardising everything I'd ever wanted and worked for. I don't know many people who get mortal drunk and are still the nicest people in the world. You're always sloppy or aggressive. I became a gross amalgamation of all of those when I was drunk. So I'd deal with a hangover and that shame. And what gets rid of that? Having a drink."
"(My management) sat me down and said, 'You've got everything you've ever wanted and everything you've worked for and it feels like you're still really unhappy'.
"And I was. So that's when I stepped up my therapy. Now I'm in such a happy place, I feel really sorry for that girl."
I'm a Celebrity.. Get Me Out of Here airs on ITV and ITV Hub.
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